I'm Officially the Family Charity Case.

So, I'm feeling kinda pathetic...my Auntie Carol offered to pay for an online dating site for a Christmas gift so I can get back out there and start dating. Both my aunt and mom feel sorry for me and how alone I am. I'm a combination of flattered they wanna help and feeling the single-hood even more now that my family looks at me with that "oh, how sad...she's all alone" look they both get. I think they realize they are getting up there and may not always be around so they don't want me to be alone if and when that happens....kinda sweet I guess. lol

I know in a matter of a few years there is a big chance that it will come down to just me and Cammie but I really do try not to think about that. My family is all just a few short years away from their 70's and above and not exactly in the best of health but I don't really wanna be their charity case cuz they fear that when and if the time comes to deal with this situation I'll be more alone than ever. I know it's definitely a strong possibility since my dating/love life sucks, but I also know that a lot can happen/change in a year too. Maybe there is someone wonderful in my near future and I will stop finding men who use me then toss me back once they are done or hit on me for one reason and one alone. Kinda sucks actually. But I also know that after the last year and a half of being a solo-mom w/out a lot of help, losing my job, all the family medical issues that have arisen I can handle anything. I'm one tough, strong, highly independent chick who can handle anything tossed at me. I know my family worries about me and I really do appreciate it but I'll be ok no matter what happens. Yes, I'd prefer to have someone there by my side when and if the time comes to lose everyone I care about in my family (my family is all older, unhealthy and small...there is 6 of us left) but if that doesn't happen then I'll do just fine on my own like I always have. I'm good at being alone. I know how to take care of myself and everyone around me. I can do anything!!!

Feel free to laugh at this ramble and the fact that I'm officially the family charity case. It was funny to me too. :-)